High dive reaches new low.

I didn't jump! I was pushed! Apparently I was helping the wrong person. I enjoy the difficult,. But there comes a time to cut the rope. That time seems to be now. Since the rope I used to pull everyone up with, was tied around my neck when I wasn't looking. How can you love and blame at the same time. What am I to do? I don't know where to start. A lawyer? To have something that is so pure and beautiful and watch it get hurt by others actions is not ok. It is my job to protect. Why are some people so forgiving to some and not to others. How can you be at the point of sending someone away and calling 911 to protect yourself and others from that person and 2 days later act as if nothing happened? Clean slate over and over so that they may commit the same crime again and again. There comes a time to push back and get your footing right so that you can't me moved. It is like this say this nerdy kid likes this cheerleader. They become friends (kinda). He helps her with her difficult homework gets her through the tough quiz and then her friend say "your friends with him?" And she says no he just keeps bugging me. At some point, nerdy is going to see the writing on the wall. I was used. Ignore all of this. i'm hurt.