What day is it?

ok I still haven't had a drink. But I'm going a bit crazy. So I have found a need to fill the time with things that will take my mind off of food and booze. I love movies and music. ITUNES has become my new best friend. I have downloaded the showtime show sleeper cell, it is awesome. It is rare to find such great TV. You see I don't get cable because they just keep upping the prices for no reason. Why is it that most things go down in price, but not cable. Anyhow this way I get to watch what I want when I want. But IM surprised with the good TV this year. House M.D., LOST, and now sleeper cell. Sorry I'm rattling on so much .Coffee does the body good. Ok for music on the show sleeper cell there was a song called "bullet and a target" by Citizen cope. Awesome song I recommend downloading it. I think I'm starting day four on my new habits. I'm still struggling, I didn't think it was going to be so difficult. I was once told by a friend who is a drug counselor that I'm a stimulant addict. Meaning that anything that stimulates me I get hooked on. I,E, coffee, running, sex, bungee jumping, ect. ect. Maybe he was right. So I have a problem but if I was to go to an AA meeting that would be like saying I'm never going to drink again. I'm not ready for that commitment. don't get me wrong I can make other long term commitments like I have been a vegetarian for 14 years. I just like thinking that some day I will enjoy alcohol again. I know this is not helping I have a head ache just writing this. I need help! e-mail me help. All for now the dog requires walking.